Friday, June 29, 2007
It is exactly 7 weeks to the day until I go to New Zealand and I am making a vow to be feeling better about myself by then. I have this vision of stepping onto my first ever international flight and knowing that I have done the best I can to lose some weight and feel proud of myself and ready to enjoy an awesome holiday. Now if only I could work out how to do this...
Wednesday, June 27, 2007
Diet Coke Rocks
What about your hips...
Do you have an Extra Large in this?
You Would Be Pretty If...
AND NOW FOR THE QUESTIONS:
What were you doing 10 years ago?
I was 16 and in year 11 at high school, wishing I had a boyfriend and feeling all self conscious and teenage angsty.
What were you doing 1 year ago?
I was in my most hated job ever in a call centre for the Yellow Pages. I was at an emotional breaking point, not knowing that in exactly 3 weeks I would finally get a good job!
Five snacks You Enjoy:
Chips & Dip
Five songs to which you know all the lyrics:
No Man's Woman- Sinead O'Connor
The Pina Colada Song- Rupert Holmes
Oops I Did It Again- Brittany
Mean To Me- Crowded House
Morning Song- Jewel
Five things you would do if you were a Millionaire:
Travel around the world
Buy everyone in my family a house and car
Start a not-for-profit organisation helping women in need
Start my own book store in Healesville
Write a book
Five Bad Habits:
Being over sensitive
Being overly critical of people
Five Things You Like Doing:
Going to the movies
Shopping (when it works out...)
Being with my friends and family
Five Things You'll Never Wear Again:
Bikini- though I have never worn one in my life, so it won't exactly be 'again'
G-String- once again, I have never worn one of these, don't think I ever will!
Tan coloured panty hose
Five Favourite "toys":
My new LG Shine phone
My VCR (I love taping my fave shows)
My hair straightener
I think just about everyone has already done this tag, so if you haven't and you want to, just do it. Let me know if you do so I can read your answers! I haven't seen Fat Bridesmaid or Christine do it...
Sunday, June 24, 2007
- Fit into my winter jacket (NZ will be way too cold without a jacket)
- Fit into my jeans
- Fit into my black trench coat
God I hope those clothes fit me, I may have left my run a bit late though...
By the way, when I am in New Zealand I am going to Christchurch, Mt Cook and Queenstown (unfortunately I don't have time to go to the North Island), if anyone has any suggestions on what I should do while I am there let me know! Are there any good plus size shops in Christchurch that anyone knows of?
Wednesday, June 20, 2007
So you can assume from that last paragraph that I haven't been eating very well. I have been trying to eat intuitively, but unfortunately my body seems to intuitively crave pizza... I have tried to go by the motto of 'doing the best I can when I can'. I tell you what though, it is so much fun not to have to worry about food and calories. Over the past couple of weeks I have enjoyed work lunches, family dinners, drinks at the pub, hang over food and eating chocolate when it is TTOM. It is such a fun relaxing lifestyle to eat when you want to and not stress out about it. I haven't worried about avoiding food or social situations, I have just been enjoying life.
I really must start to think about watching what I eat a bit more closely though...
In other news, my older brother got engaged! He met a girl from Canada on the Internet and they have been talking on the phone for about a year. She came to Australia a few weeks ago and he proposed before she left earlier this week. So that is pretty exciting, I have been so worried about him and his depression and he seems to be another person all of a sudden. Plus I get to go to a wedding- yay!
Wednesday, June 06, 2007
I went to the supermarket last night and bought fruit, veg and meat and made meal plans for the next few days. Last night I made a baked potato with coleslaw, light cheese, bacon and light sour cream. Tonight I am having crumbed fish with frozen chips and veggies, my other ideas are rissoles with veg and mashed potato, fajitas and home made pizza. It was so hard for me to come up with ideas for dinner that are appealing and not too unhealthy. I tend to go from veggie soup to take away pizza and there is not much in between.
I am finding understanding what my body needs very difficult. Last night after dinner I couldn't stop snacking. I had given myself the go ahead to eat if I was hungry, but I just didn't know if I was hungry. I am not sure if I really know what being full is. Traditionally I have kept eating if there was any possible chance of fitting any more food in until I felt sick and I used to think that was full. Just knowing that I had bought some snacks (usually banned in my house), meant that I couldn't stop eating it until I had over indulged and made a pig of myself.
Then this morning at work we had a morning tea and I restricted myself to 1 cupcake, but as the day went on and the food sat in the kitchen, it was on my mind. Throughout the day I ended up going back and eating another 2 cup cakes and a piece of lemon slice and I almost grabbed a muffin as I was leaving but I managed to stop myself. The food was in the back of mind all day and I just couldn't stop thinking about it. I really just don't know how to stop.
I am really hoping that over the next couple of weeks I can think more about the foods I eat and why I am eating them. I have lot's of social functions on where I normally eat and drink way too much, so it should be an interesting challenge.
Tuesday, June 05, 2007
So it was a really nice weekend and free from drama and tension, mostly... I was so exhausted by Sunday night when I got home and I still am. Who knew it was so tiring to do nothing. Thank god it is a long weekend in Australia this weekend!
I ate non stop all weekend which doesn't really bother me. The only problem is that I haven't stopped yet. I am skirting in dangerous territory if I don't get myself sorted soon. I am following a bad pattern I have of dieting before an event and then after it is over constant binging. I am setting myself the target of just eating healthy today, I don't have to exercise, just don't eat Maccas for tea like I did last night. I know things could go sour with my weight loss really quickly because I have plans for the long weekend and then next week I have lots of work lunches, dinners and meetings and all of a sudden I will be officially out of control!
Friday, June 01, 2007
I am getting increasingly frustrated at my slow weight loss. I don't mind losing half a kilo, but occasionally I would like to knock off a kilo, just to give me a boost. The worst part is that I am working so hard and missing out on so much and to be honest, it doesn't feel worth it for a measly half a kilo. I am getting up at 6.00am every morning to exercise, then I walk to and from work (50 minutes), I drink 3 litres of water a day and keep my calories under 1200 and fat under 20 grams. I am not really sure what else I can do.
Next week I will expect a gain because in a couple of hours I am leaving to go to Daylesford for the weekend. Me, my brothers and their partners, my dad and my step mum are all going for my dad's 50th birthday. It is going to be a weekend full of wine and food and not much exercise. I am looking forward to the break, I haven't really ever gone away before or had a holiday, so this is pretty exciting for me! I have booked a masseuse to come out to the house we are staying in to give us massages. When I booked this a couple of months ago I was expecting to have lost more weight then I did. I have never had a massage before and I am feeling quite self conscious about it. I am not even sure if I will go ahead with it. I assume that lot's of fat people have massages, but I am not sure I can go ahead with it. I'll try and be brave and see how I go.